Art and the NEW ME

Lately since I have been going through changes, hopefully (maturing) for the better, it has been hard to understand who I am and the directions I want to go in. My morals and values haven't changed, but the way I look at them and how much I value them has.
  What scares me is, the idea that things that have been apart of me for many many years will not be apart of the future me. It terrifies me to think that things I love will slowly fade away from me. After all, these things are apart of what has shaped who I am thus far. Many of the things I love that I am terrified of losing aren't necessarily bad things that would disable my growth as a human being. For example my art. I hardly have time for it any more and never am inspired like I used to be. I always feel the urge and the hunger for it pulsating through my veins but the action never comes forth. Its like that itch you just can't scratch.
I used to have such a thirst for it. The smallest thing could spark an idea in my head. As a matter of fact I used to have so many ideas that I felt I'd never have time to attempt them all. I guess you should feel blessed for the times that you are overwhelmed because you never know how long the feeling will last. 

 Anyway , I guess you could say that  I am in a rut, or I'm bored. Someone wise once told me that when you are bored, its because you are thinking about yourself too much. hmmm, in my head that clearly means only one thing. I used to create artwork only for myself. Not for me to keep, but strictly for my enjoyment. So I will begin to challenge myself and step outside of the box. Not that I am inside the box, I just want to step slightly further away. I'm going to try all sorts of different styles, things that i never would have done before and see where it takes me. Maybe not just in the image of what I paint (if I use paint at all), but in my medium and or the composure or how I go about creating the piece.

Love Sharidan
-An artist stepping further away from the box! :)