Art and the NEW ME

Lately since I have been going through changes, hopefully (maturing) for the better, it has been hard to understand who I am and the directions I want to go in. My morals and values haven't changed, but the way I look at them and how much I value them has.
  What scares me is, the idea that things that have been apart of me for many many years will not be apart of the future me. It terrifies me to think that things I love will slowly fade away from me. After all, these things are apart of what has shaped who I am thus far. Many of the things I love that I am terrified of losing aren't necessarily bad things that would disable my growth as a human being. For example my art. I hardly have time for it any more and never am inspired like I used to be. I always feel the urge and the hunger for it pulsating through my veins but the action never comes forth. Its like that itch you just can't scratch.
I used to have such a thirst for it. The smallest thing could spark an idea in my head. As a matter of fact I used to have so many ideas that I felt I'd never have time to attempt them all. I guess you should feel blessed for the times that you are overwhelmed because you never know how long the feeling will last. 

 Anyway , I guess you could say that  I am in a rut, or I'm bored. Someone wise once told me that when you are bored, its because you are thinking about yourself too much. hmmm, in my head that clearly means only one thing. I used to create artwork only for myself. Not for me to keep, but strictly for my enjoyment. So I will begin to challenge myself and step outside of the box. Not that I am inside the box, I just want to step slightly further away. I'm going to try all sorts of different styles, things that i never would have done before and see where it takes me. Maybe not just in the image of what I paint (if I use paint at all), but in my medium and or the composure or how I go about creating the piece.

Love Sharidan
-An artist stepping further away from the box! :)

Going natural not cliche

I'm going natural but not cliche .  what I mean by cliche : I won't be rocking afros on the daily or wearing twists or being locEd up.
But if I was I dont understand everyones hang up about being natural. MORE POWER TO THE SOUL SISTERS . I think the women who wear these gorgeous styles do it absolutely beautifully , the look just isn't for me , not saying I wouldn't try it out. After all I look great with most things I do .
  I find it funny that when I was mentioning to people that I was going to have a bc = big chop during my process , everyone cringed. But I say you only live once so why not? Besides I wear wigs anyway so kno one would even know a difference :)
So I thought, lol. I decided to have a long process instead so that I could slowly learn how to take care of natural hair being that no one in my family has ever been natural to my knowledge.
I must admit I used to be exactly like the critics that I have been facing . I felt like I didn't need to be natural and relaxers worked for me. A friend of mine was  offended once when I said I couldn't be natural . It really made me sit and look at myself. Why couldn't it be for me, and maybe I wasn't as open minded as I thought I was. after all, my edges and ends are damaged , my hair sheds badly and my hair isn't nearly as long as I want it. So clearly relaxers aren't working for me . So why not try something new? It will be healthy on my hair edges and scalp.
But anyway, today marks the day that I'm officially announcing that I'm going natural . I say that today is the day, because today would have been a day that I would have gotten a relaxer (in between  relaxers) basically. :) .. So today is the day . Ill keep you posted and updated .

Thanks for reading
Love sharidan  - going natural but not cliche

Setting the tone

I want this image to set the tone of my blog